I'm 18 headed off to college this fall. I've had 3 girlfriends in the last year. My second girlfriend I really fell for. I always liked talking to her and always had so much fun hanging out with her. We had much as much fun as you can have with clothes on. It lasted 5 months which isn't long but I still miss her and think about her often. I guess the problem I have is I can't stop thinking about her. Anytime something sexual comes up, like a movie scene, tv, magazine ad, I can't help but think about her. I also see other couples holding hands or whatever and I can't help but think of her. She made it pretty clear to her friends when we broke up, we weren't ever getting back together. We're still friends currently which is bad for me. So I'm kind of stuck. On one hand I want to get out and just go bang some chick. Any chick. Just in hopes that it will ease my mind because I will have experienced sex instead of imagining it in my mind of how I wish it would have been with that 2nd gf. But on the other hand, I don't think meaningless sex would "satisfy" me because that's just it. It's meaningless. It wouldn't have the passion that I want. I have a girlfriend now but it was mistake. I went on a few dates, toyed with asking her to be in a relationship, finally did and here we are.. She is a strong catholic girl and would never have sex before marriage. So I'm not going to get anywhere with her. I'm not exactly happy in this relationship either. She's a great girl, it's just not like my last one. I don't have the same feelings for her. I plan on breaking up with her soon but after that, what should I do?