[UK_R6]

Having read PTW's story, it made me want to continue with a little more detail on a couple of area's.
The first is Nicole, and how she changed my life....

It all started back in 1991, it was mid June and the 2 guys I was sharing the Villa with had a friend coming over from Germany to visit, Thorsten, one of the guys was very much in love with her, but chose not to tell her, safety zone I guess.....As for Ingo, she was his best friend for many years.

If you read above you would have heard me tell how much of an asshole I was at this time, and that panned very much so into other guys girls also, nothing felt better to me that taking a woman away from another guy, and I had done so in many instances. SO with that said, for over a month I had listened to Thorsten tell me about Nicole and how happy he was about her impending visit, and how during this time, because the setting would be right, he finally felt he would be able to tell her how he feels......

So the story begins.
We were all working at the same place, I was working up in the office on paperwork, Ingo at the front desk renting out gear, and Thorsten next door working on the mountain bikes. In she walks, I see her out of the corner of my eye, and immediatly feel the compulsion to take a better look, so I look right down at her, she looks right back at me and smiles, shit my heart sank, immediatley, oh fuck, she was amazing, those eyes, that smile, bollocks how the hell am I going to be an asshole to both her and Thorsten, because as I said I really didnt give a shit about anyone, when I felt the way I did just from looking at her.........

Thorsten and Ingo both run to greet her, hugs all round..... "Darren, come down and meet Nicole" Ingo called, "I'll be right there, let me just finish up" I replied "Kein erhalten Sie unten hier im Augenblick" shouted Nicole, thankfully I had been learning German for some time and new what she had just said, basically get down here now I want to meet you......Shit......

OK so I go down, shake her hand, throw in a few nice greetings for good measure, and we all go next door for a beer in the bar that was attached to the center....

We talk ther for about an hour or so, me really just listening as they were yapping away in German all the time, and though I could understand it, to speak it was a whole different story, that is one fucked up language, everything so back to front, and I speak English and well you may know how it goes......

The whole time they are talking and me listening, I notice Nicole looking at me several time, and each time she passes me a subtle smile, could she read my mind, could she see waht I was thinking, it was as if she knew me right from the word get go and knew what I had planned in my mind....
The fucked up thing was, as soon as I laid eyes on her, it all went away, all the pain of my breakup with Amanda, and all the evil that had engulfed me since, I actually felt like me again.....Man that was one fucked up thought in my head....

So that evening we are all sitting around the Villa, shooting the shit as you do, Thorsten, Ingo and Nicole were going out to dinner later, I had to go to work so I was unable to join them......
When I got home at around 3 am, I climbed into my bed and began to fall asleep, as I was dozing off, I hear a voice, "Sind Sie wach, kümmern sich Sie, um wenn ich mit Ihnen spreche", 'huh" I replied, "I'm sorry my English is not so good, I asked if you were awake and if I could talk to you" LOL trust me her English was bad so I have revamped it a little so you can understand.....
"Sure no problem, what's wrong?"
And so we began to talk, she started by telling me how she has been thinking about me all the time, ever since she saw me at the center.... I was a little shocked to say the least, now under normal circumstances, I would have played right into this, told her what she wanted to hear, and 30 minutes later I would have been shaggin her....I'd done it many times before so why would this be any different..... Fuck I thought, I can't do it, so instead I just played it off, and listened to what she was ssaying to me. Then I started to think, shit she's doing it to me, she wants to shag me, and is playing my game....
But no, she wasn't she was actually genuine, she was speaking from her heart. We sat there on my bed until the sun came up, we never stopped talking, we covered everything, love hate war life work the past the future everything, it was the most intense conversation I'd had in a long time.....

So needless to say I didnt get any sleep that night, as was pretty worn out the next day at work, so when the evening came around and we had all planned to go out together, I didnt have to work, instead of doing so, I made my apologies and said I'm too tired I need some sleep. This time there was a whole group of friends going out, it was actually a regular thing we all did, only this time Nicole was going with....Anyway when the time came to leave, while the others were getting ready, me and Nicole had started talking again, and instead of going, she made her apologies and told them she wanted to actually stay in and of all things, she didnt hide it, she told them she was in a really good conversation with me and wanted to continue. Needless to say Thorsten didnt look too happy, and he had that look that basically told me, " don't you fuckign dare play your games with this girl, I love her and I'll fucking kill you if you do anything to hurt her" yeah thats what that look was....
So they all left, and we started to talk more, only this time as there was no one in the villa, the conversation went more to the lines of "us"....

As we were talking I felt compelled to let her know what Thorsten had told me, and how he had feelings for her, her reply was quite a shock, see she knew all about it, she knew how he felt about her, she had done for some time, she also knew the reason that Thorsten had moved out to Lanzarote from Germany was to actually get away from those feelings.....
Thats when she dropped it all, it was actually one of the reasons she was here, she was going to tell him that she knew all about his feelings, and how wonderful it made her feel, but she was going to have to let him down, see she'd been dating a guy behind everyones back for over 3 years nows, and nobody knew about him.....

Then, fuck she had to drop in me....She began by telling me what she saw when she walked through the door at the center and how even with the appearance of Thorsten and Ingo, she only saw me, and how she knew what I was feeling inside, she told me to tell her why I was hurting so bad...What? How the fuck did she know this, " I can see it in your eyes" she told me....
So I told her....After I finsihed the whole Amanda portion of my life, she leaned into me, and kissed me, not that friendly kiss either, she kissed me with what felt like her soul, when she moved back she said this to me, and I'll never forget it to this day, they were the most heart felt beatiful words I have ever heard...."Mit diesem Kuß Ich gebe Ihnen zurück Ihr Herz, teilen Sie es mit mir, lieben Sie mich als ich liebe Dich" translation "With that kiss, I give you back your heart, share it with me, love me as I love you"

Needless to say I was speechless.....For the first time in well 18 months, my heart again began to beat.....

I was a little confused though, what about her boyfriend, she told me she loves him too, and always will, but for now, she is going to love me.....Was I getting played here......No I wasn't she was actually sincere....The conversation went on, the others came home, we all sat around for a while and finally went to bed. I was awoke sometime later by Nicole getting into bed with me, "be quiet she whispered into my ear" she then took me on a journey I will never forget, damn this woman new how to make love, she showed me things I never thought were possible, made me feel how only dreams are made off, I was lost.......

We woke early in the morning, just in time for her to leave my bed and go back to her's before the others found out, it was to be our secret for now anyway.....

The next couple of days were like many before and many to follow, work work work, we took every chance we could to talk to each other, we didnt sleep together just talked....

It was finally my day off all work, I only got one day a month for this, so I asked Nicole if she would like to spend the day with me, I would show here around the island, all the interesting places to visit, and so we set of out. I took her everywhere, all the hot spots, timinfya, the fire mountains, we had lunch at Mirador del Rio, sat on the beach and watched the surf at Famara, I took her diving at jameos del agua, great spot for underwater life....
Then somehoe we ended up at a little cove I knew about, always deserted, never anyone there, it was my place when I needed to get away from it all....

While we sat there it was getting late and the Sun had begun to set, we'd bought some wine earlier and we started talking.....Well one thing led to another, and we started to kiss....This is where it get's interesting, we hadn't noticed there was a small boat to one corner of the cove, and all of a sudden this guy comes out of the water, he'd been harpoon fishing, and was coming in to sort his catch and head home. Nicole caught the way I looked at him, and just kinda whispered in my ear a soft "hmm"....When he left we made love on the beach. I didnt think anything of the "hmm" until when we got back to the villa, and went to bed. This time she climbed right in with me, and began talking to me, only this time, she bagan talking to me about the way I looked at the guy, needless to say I was a little curious as to where she was going with this.....Then she came out with it, " you liked him didnt you" I coudn't lie to her, yes I did, "have you ever been with a man" she asked, "no I'm not gay" I told her, " I didnt ask you that, I asked if you had ever been with a man", "no" I replied. She got up and went to her room, came back and climbed into my bed again.
For those who are squeemish, or homophobic you may want to skip this paragraph.

She started to kiss me, touching me all over. I won't go into all the details, but believe me she'd rock your world too, anyway we're making love, though actually I would describe this time, more as Fucking, she was on top of me at the time, when she slipped her hand back, and slipped a finger into my ass, this was the first time anyone had ever done this to me, anyway she pushed on a certain spot and I nearly blew my load right there and then, but damn if she didnt know that and knew exactly what to do to stop me from doing so, I looked at her and she had this really strange glint in her eyes.....She reached under the pillow and I found out what she had gone to her room for, we changed position so that I was now on top of her, and she reached around me again, with a moist finger and again started to play with my ass, then she reached around a slipped a vibrator in to my ass, holy shit, guys if you've never done this, try it.......Trust me it's not a gay thing, it's a really really good thing......Anyway, as she was doing so, she began whispering in my ear, she was talking about the guy from the cove, she was descibing him to me in perfect detail, suggesting thoughts in to my head, and man it was turning me on, on we would go, me fucking her, and her now fucking me too.....When we came it was the most intense feeling I had ever had. After we had cleaned of, we climbed back into my bed, the first thing she said to me was, "you do know your Bi-sexual right".....I had to confess, no I didnt know, well yes I did, for a few years I actually thought I was gay, I'd actually known from way back in school.....

So we talked more and more, everyday, we truly fell in love with each other, we even told everyone, this is actually a funny story. Freidl, the owner of the center, and Ingo's dad, was throwing a little shin dig at the centers bar, he asked me to work that night, and Nicole suggested she would like to also. So there we are working away together, when she looked at me a certain way, we'd managed to hide what was happening from everyone to that point, well Freidl noticed the look and called Nicole over to him, the spoke for a little while, and then he called me over, "sit down" he said to me, "get me 2 beers" he said to one of the other bar tenders......"So she's in love with you huh"
I was shocked to say the least, see Freidl is one powerful man, both business wise and physically, and he knew the kind of guy I was, he actually liked me for it, I never let anything get in the way, just worked and fucked, thats it....
"Yes" I replied, "and you" he asked, "yes I love me too" trying to make a joke, then I cut myself short "yes I love her too", "good, it's about time the real you came out, you've been hurt for too long" just so you know, Freidl knew all about me, he had become like a Father to me. I was pretty shocked to say the least, but at the same time a little overwhelmed, he could see this, and gave me one of those, father son hugs and told me "Willkommen zurück, Sie sind von diesem langen Lebenweg zu weg gewesen, Liebe wieder und ist liebte in der Rückkehr" translation "welcome back, you've been away from this life way too long, love again and be loved in return"

I noticed Nicole out of the corner of my eye, she was smiling at me,my heart lifed so high at that moment....

So 2 days later, Nicole was due to leave the next day, so we all decided to go out to the Old town in Puerto del Carmen, quite the area I might say...
While there, me and Nicole talked about the future, how she was gong to go back to Germany and her boyfriend, how she would tell him all about me, they had no secrets, how she would tell him how she feel in love with me, and how that love would make their relationship so much stronger. How she would come back in a couple of months to visit me, and how I should come to Germany to visit her....Then out of the blue, she went to the bar, and came back with a guy, he joined us, we all got talking, phone number were exchanged, the little shit had fixed me up, and she knew exactly the right person....She really did know me.....
That night, we slept together, just holding each other close, and dreaming, it was the most amazing way to fall asleep, in the arms of the women who brought me back to life......

She did come back to see me, twice actually, I dated the guy from the bar for a couple of months, I'd say his name, but I try not to remember it, not because I want to forget, but because he was a special part of my life, and some memories are best left as just memories......
I went to Germany to visit her, I got to meet Franke, man what a guy, I could see why she kept him a secret for so long, they were truly in love with each other and didnt want anyone to spoil it for them.....Thorsten never did get to tell Nicole how he felt, she dealt with that, by just telling him, that she already knew, there was no need to say anything, and that she loved him too, as a friend.......

That was 14 years ago, and to this day, me and Nicole still love each other, we are best friends, we talk every chance we can, write letters to each other all the time......She married Franke in 1996, they have 2 beautiful sons, and love each other as they always have....

Thats how I learned to love again, and the story of the woman who changed my life forever, by literally bringing me back from the dead.....

PTW hope that was paragraphed a little better for you...... ;)